Lord, your killing me!

Just when you thought you had finally started to figure out God’s plans and ways, He blows your mind again! This is why it is important to stay in the Word- His precious word. Oh how deep are His Words! How worthless is human knowledge! It is so easy to get drawn in and believe that you have this Christian walk all figured out-that you’ve finally got a working formula- this could hinder deeper revelations from the Omniscient God. There is nothing as deceitful as the human heart. It is as stable as the ocean waves, easily tossed and blown by the powerful winds of fleshly cravings and lusts. And if we do not keep watch, the ravenous lion, the devil, will shred us to pieces at the slightest opportunity! So, help us God to work out our faith with fear and trembling, not to create idols in our hearts as we falsely think we are serving you. For the way of true salvation is truly narrow, very few find it, and even fewer walk on it all the days of their lives.

Covetousness is a major Christian pitfall. We covet everything from money to other people’s ministries. We often blur its ugly image by shading it with terms like, “This is my purpose here, not that over there! I won’t move or do anything until this door opens!” We want to choose the way and manner in which we serve God. We want to tell Him what we want. The clay telling the potter, “I don’t want to be a coffee mug, make me a flower vase!” Lord, forgive us, for being so arrogant and prideful! Our desires often fight to overpower your Will in our lives. We want to run things our way and still pretend that we are following your lead!      Oh wretched creatures that we are!

The scary thing is that you, Oh God, most times let us chase our worthless desires – to our own judgment and downfall. If we keep pestering you to have our own selfish way, you actually step back and allow us to go ahead- that, Oh Lord is an absolutely terrifying thought to me! For we can run ahead (thinking we have heard from you) to our own destruction! Humble us, teach us to REALLY listen to your voice, not just “think” that we have heard your voice when we have actually heard the whispers of our own voices echoing our selfish ambitions and lusts!

Discernment, Oh Lord! I plead for the knowledge and Wisdom that can only come from you! Keep me searching, seeking diligently. Keep me humble, for worldly knowledge puffs up and leads me astray, but your Wisdom Oh Lord keeps me broken before you. Who am I that I may know the mysteries of the Great God? Yet, your precious word promises me that I can know your wisdom, if only I ask of you, if only I seek diligently from you-they can be revealed! Oh blessed thought, Amazing Grace!

So ruin me, wreck me, and kill me daily! For it is only when I pick up my cross and fall in line behind Jesus- only then, can I be sure that I am on the narrow road. All other ground is sinking sand.